I took a page out of Lilly’s book (check out her post and the discussion-good stuff!) and jumped into level 1 fast movements-twice through. Some parts flowed and mostly I was playing catch-up. But I allowed my mind to unclench and just let my body do what it needed to. I even smiled and giggled for the first time.
I was hoping for dramatic impact. (This might be part of the problem, you know. The hoping… I sense that I have to let go of the expectation and then the magic will reappear.)
In any case I did get a powerful image and a new insight that helped me understand yesterday’s experience with the loud ladies in the gym.
The image: A 6 ft square glass box. I am in it. In fact I live in it. I talk to people from it, I listen from it. (If I were the Little Prince I would get someone to draw it for me.)
The meaning: I realize I often feel like I am in my own personal protected space and if other people come close to my 6 x 6 enclosure it is an invasion a surprise. I only occasionally open up the box.
Which brings me back to intimacy huh? And my yearning for open space..and free and wild movement. And child like abandon. And indiscriminate hugs and…
(i>The image: A 6 ft square glass box. I am in it. In fact I live in it. I talk to people from it, I listen from it.
I really feel like this sometimes. But my box is made from that one-way glass they have in cop shows, with only a few spots for peeking in.
My yearning to have open space and wild movement is totally restricted by living in a city. I can’t leave my apartment without tripping over hundreds of people.
As I explore my experiences with the Dance of Shiva, I am very grateful for you sharing your experiences. Pure awesome!
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Yes-nothing triggers that “I gotta get outta here” feeling like being in a city for too long… (There is always ‘carolina in your mind’ or is James Taylor to not cool a reference?